How do I feel when I do something special?

First, I want to tell you that my life doesn’t have the special moments very often. The special moment in my life is when I had to show my ability in public places like playing the recorder, presenting the knowledge at the end of term, or having the play. I can remember all these moments although they were the short moments in my life. I always feel nervous and excited when I do these things. My hands will shake a little bit and my heart will beat so fast, so before I go out to show something I had to take the deep breath and stay with myself. I would feel more meditative and confident to do something. I always expect for the good result from these special moments but sometimes it wouldn’t be like my expectation. I would feel sad and hopeless for many days until I got something more interesting to do and I would forget it. Although I have done many shows, I still feel nervous and excited. I have noticed myself that I will feel nervous when I have to do something in action like acting or playing music. But when I have to speak or present in front of people, I wouldn’t feel nervous. I think I have more meditation and know that situation was easy to solve the problem when bad things had happened.I feel nervous when I have to do the test too. I felt excited and hot inside my body. I hope that I could do it. The other special moment in my life that can happen easily is when I did something that I like, for example reading the novel. I would forget everything that was around me and feel happy with my own world. I felt free because I didn’t have to think about my real life, what I have to do next. The time would pass so fast in that moment. I try to make myself feel happy easily with the little special moments in my life. I don’t want to go out to find some things to make myself happy like go out for shopping or watching the movie. If I can’t do it, I will not feel happy. I think happiness depends on your mind. I think when I live with my family, do the things that I like and playing with my friends, these moments are the special moments in my life.

What I want in my country’s leaders.

In Thailand, I want our leaders to change our country in our King’s way, sufficiently economy. I think this way is good and suitable with our country. Thailand is an agriculture country which the nature and the environment are the most essential things that we should protect and restore, so I think that our leaders should be the people who recognize what are important and necessary for our country.
In my opinion, the leaders that can do what I have said they have to be honest and not selfish because this way to improve our country is hard to do. They need good intention and a lot of money to do it, so if they are corrupt I think they can’t do it. Another thing that I think they should have is the real knowledge about the people. They should know the real problems that we have, real situations that we face and what are important things that we really need in that time. These things will really help us so I want the leaders who would care about other people more than themselves. I don’t want our leaders to be the people who know a lot about this fashionable world or the high technology but don’t know about the real life that Thai’s people are living.
And the last thing that I want in my country’s leaders is they should be good people. I think in our society now has many people that have good skills and knowledge that can develop our country but they don’t have the good mind to make our country live with happiness. I think this is the most important thing that everybody should have. If everyone has good mind and thinking, our country will full with happiness and peace. We will not have the war, everybody are friends.
I don’t know that it will happen or not in the future but if these things can happen, I think our country will be better than now.